Every once in a while you will get a “freak out” post from me about being pregnant. When I sit down to really think about the position I am in right now, I wonder “Am I ready for this?!?!”
I have some confessions to make:
- I have never changed a diaper. That’s right, when my baby is born I will have to ask the nurse to teach me how. I am the youngest in my family so I never had to do that! And I babysat but my one rule was that the child had to be potty trained because I did not do diapers. Man, I was immature…and I really regret that! I could’ve had so much experience under my belt!
- I don’t know CPR. And I am terrified that my child will choke on something and I will be completely helpless. I will be taking a CPR class before the baby is born!!
- I am a little terrified of the birthing process. Trust me, I will be getting an epidural but there are so many things that I can’t control (I am a huge control freak). We live about 20-25 mins from the hospital I want to deliver at…what happens if we run into traffic? Will I have to give birth in the car? What if I don’t have enough time to get an epidural and I have to do it naturally (I know how irrational that is and that millions of women before me had babies before epidurals were invented…but still!)?
- I know nothing about babies. I really don’t. When my friend Carla was pregnant, I went with her to Target to look for some baby clothes and we came across something called “mittens”. Immediately I said, “Mittens?! Why do babies need mittens in south Florida??” After Carla picked herself off the floor laughing at me, she informed me that mittens aren’t used to keep the baby’s hands warm. Nope. Actually they are used to keep the baby from scratching him/herself. Talk about feeling stupid. That is just ONE story of many.
Bottom line is, I know I am not ready for this but I know with God’s help, along with friends and family, I will be fine. I’ve just gotta let go of the things I can’t control. I know it will all work out. God gave us this blessing for a reason and I know He’ll equip us for the hard job!! 🙂